Been a While....

I'm dusting off the 'ol blog once again. Maybe I will keep it updated this time!

I was just going back and reading all of the updates that I posted about Mom's progress. I totally forgot that I had done that. I'm a little sad right now after reading all of the posts. But I've also been a little emotional the past few days. I've been thinking about her A LOT lately. Yesterday was a pretty bad day, almost unbearable. It's getting to the point to where I can't even go next door that much, or inside the house anymore. If I do, I stay outside.
I went over there today by myself since Dad and Kim aren't home. I went in their closest and looked at her clothes. The black jacket she wore on Christmas, I held it for a few minutes hoping her scent was still there. I can't smell her anymore. I'm afraid I'm going to forget her voice and that makes me so sad and so angry at the same time.
I'm glad that she is pain-free and in a better place, but I'm just so mad at God right now for taking her away from us! I'm really having a hard time with my Faith because of it. I haven't stepped foot in a Church since she passed away. I know in time this will pass and I will ask Him for forgiveness, but I'm not ready right now.